Well, last night was crap. Spent the time talking to my Ex-g/f. She is going through so much crap and I can't do a thing about it. I hate that feeling of hopelessness I know that if I had more money or something. I could do more but all I can do now is just pray. I don't know I know what I could do and ima talk to a friend about it. But I was just so bummed out last night. I just didn't wana go home so I ended up hangin out with some friends. That helped a lot because they always make me laugh or whatever. Somethin else that has really been buggen me. I had been talking to someone about this and it's how when I like people I'll do dumb things. For example, if something will make them happy at my own expense I'll do it. I don't know I'm so messed up in the head when it comes to relationships with girls now. I just keep telling my self I don't like her. I have a few clues why, but it's just so wacked out. I guess I just don't want to ask her if she likes me back because I assume that she dosen't. So I tell my self I don't like her. I think ima stop talking to her about me so much also. Just pull away mentaly for a bit. But still be there for her. I don't know don't really have a clue as to what I sould do. Just realize that I need to stop being so self sacrificing.